Why i`ve scream?

What`s the matter with me? i always tried to fix everything, but all in vain because every move seems to turn my cannibal reality worst.Sometimes i started to think that my whore life wasn`t cool i just waited my death, That times were weird but my weakness was stronger than my desires to find a reason to live and then i fell in suffering, on a kinda darkness that cling to me and i wasn`t able to move my body and the memories consume me. But after all these times has passing by, im new. All this changes, i cant deny that are great, and the best part of it is that u are here with me. Arigato U.G.F.de L.