Afraid of...

Tell me, what should i do?
I want meet the happiness

but im afraid of go out,

can you come in?

Thanks is amazing that you´re here.

at last i know what´sbe happy,

but is it sure?, will stay for ever?

can i live and know that your feelings

by me will be in your bowels? or,
will them drain slowly?.

You know?im afraid of miss you,
miss something that seem so real.

I really love you, and i dont think

i could feel the same way twice, You are everything.

Is kinda weird, i dont know what to think about,

What i was, i dont want to be again.

You and only you take of my madness and insanity,
please dont get it in again....

Dont leave me.

Without you..who am i?

Its true that we`re youngs, but it really fucking care,
when we talk about love?
If you leave, i will be missed, like i was
before met you...
Here in the darkness, be alone is so sad..
the madness wrap you and i stay there just feeling the emptyness.


Honey, without you the amount of blood that my heart will drain will
be amazing, please dont stump your presence... You are my relief, you just are everything.

Without you my soul fall unaware, my shelter will be myself again, i will be like i was.
Im your guardian, a shipwrecked that you save. The weather is cold when you`re gone,
my happyness doesnt exist cause it leave me when you arent here.

The solitude will invade me, all my hope will gone dry, death inside thats what will gonna happend to me, i can handle it but i dont want to.

Here in the darkness im safe, im free... but just because you accept to be here with me, dont listen to these words that want to appart us...just trust your heart and listen to it!

En mi ultimo respiro...

Estoy logrando mi objetivo me harte de vivir cautivo, hago un ultimo suspiro antes de terminar con esto de estar vivo. Pues para mi no vale la pena, y voy preparando mi condena toda mi vida de sufrimiento, pasa por mi mente a paso lento. Haciendome sentir miserable, rapidamente me torno vurnerable. Bloque mi mente, anulo mis sentidos y se reducen lentamente mis latidos... Aprieto mi temor y alzo la vista, en busca de una respuesta y a esto me resista. Y en el momento exacto en que la agonia me amarra a el incontrolable deseo de acabar esta falsa( mi vida), alguien me toma de la mano y me levanta. Rescatandome de este profundo abismo que me consumio rapidamente. Alivia mis heridas una por una, con la ayuda de un sentimiento que por primera vez esta presente. Un ser divino se ha hecho ver, e intervino en mi pensamiento de por siempre correr. He sido toda mi vida un naufrago que pregunto al cielo por tanto tiempo la razon de vivir, y Dios ha respondido de la mejor manera... ...Con tu presencia. Dark Angel-Gothic Soul.

Everything to me

Is just because everytime i trie to start again something blow my desires out
and now when your presence here, unclear to everyone next to us.But i dont care about
what they said cause no one of them know how it feels like, be there for somebody and this person is the same to you. Is a weird feeling that being flood in pain and suffering and found anybody that risk her only life trying to change the thougths that all your life were in your head
hitting you hitting yourself with all that crap, but nothing is for ever, well is different with this feeling that wrap me, so im changing all this pain and turnin it to happyness, and i cant deny that this experience is great, and better than that you are the one that make feel like this.

Is just because when i was cautivated in my darkness, when i feel like all is over, when i turn the result of the way that the society paly with me, a queen wearing the rigth dress to captivate my sense, and with the rigth words to reborn my dead soul and turn me the kniegth that will protect her even with his life... And that queen is my meaning of life my opium, my antidote and poison, my end and begin....Arigato U.G. F. de L.

Whats wrong?

Why everybody wants to see me drown?
Why you push me away?
Why cant you see that im falling down?
Without my fucking own way.

Belief and trust to you, what for?
You lay and flood me in yours mistakes!!
Dont you feel proud, or want to take more,
of this maniki that you create?!!


But like a fairy tail, not all is lost
I just lost my faith by you,
and the fault is only yours
Because you broke even my ghost, making me feel the solitude
But my heaven part came to change my actitude.

Im just a believer, that right now is bleesed,
Cuase God send you to me when he saw that I was dying.Arigato....







Gothic Soul.

Sorry dad................

Im sitting here just wating.
Screaming to throw out my pain
why cant you see that im trying
and still said that im a staind?

Im sick of you, always saying what i should do
Im tired of everything that you me to be
Cause thats what i dont want for me
Stay away im seriously talking
At your side i dont want to keep walking
Be patient your time will come
Until that i will alone in my own.

You were there when i needed you? NO
Do you really know who i am? NO
cause you dont fucking even care
I dont have dare anymore
I can scream to you that you are a whore
Im product of your actions
Thats the reason of my reaction....
Sorry men your time is over
You are fucking out of my mind.....

--Gothic Soul--

Why i`ve scream?

What`s the matter with me? i always tried to fix everything, but all in vain because every move seems to turn my cannibal reality worst.Sometimes i started to think that my whore life wasn`t cool i just waited my death, That times were weird but my weakness was stronger than my desires to find a reason to live and then i fell in suffering, on a kinda darkness that cling to me and i wasn`t able to move my body and the memories consume me. But after all these times has passing by, im new. All this changes, i cant deny that are great, and the best part of it is that u are here with me. Arigato U.G.F.de L.

Cada dia aparto mi inconciente cuerpo de
esta estupida realidad encerrando lo k en realidad soy
para mi y kien me kiera conocer.De veras cansa el que
hieran tu existencia con palabras estupidas y sin sentido
Soy un maldito ser humano se lo que es sentir, por eso me escondo
en la oscuridad para intentar olvidar eso...
arrancar los sentimientos de una vez por todas, para asi
no sufrir a causa de quien me cohibe.

Tantas veces rechazaron mis intentos para darme a conocer
pues...Al diablo con esta perra vida causante de tanto dolor
gracias a la gran cantidad de ignorancia que escupe en un grupo
desesperado por encontrar su identidad y crucifica a todo aquel
diferente a ellos...

when i dont have words.

sometimes the things that happend to me
make feel weird like all the things has passing by
are shit, i feel without breath like im nothing.
And the guilt is of the destiny, fucking on what i dont
believe but still hurt me. I've got no way out, like all hope has gone dry
and the answer to this feelings is inside of me,
But im scare, i dont want to see the real me
the one that everybody know but i dont know yet.
so when i dont have words to confort myself
i dont know where i should go. So i fall in a dark
and eternal hole that wrap me and made me slave
of my own desires. When i dont have words...
i dont know who i am.

How i feel?

Has visto como las rocas sufren en silencio al ser golpeadas por el mar?
asi me sufri en silencio tu ausencia.
Asi como recurre al refugio un perro al k golpeas...
recurri a tus hermosas palabras escritas para sentirme a salvo.
Asi como luchas por algo que deseas...
luche dia y noche con la realidad de k no estabas cerca.
Pero me di cuenta de que si estabas ahi pues te sentia y aun te siento,
gracias a eso estoy vivo y me di cuenta que aun en la distancia, existe el amor
si es cierto.
Me senti desesperado al no verte, moria a cada segundo.
pero resucitaba al sentir cada letra de aquellas cartas.
I LOVE YOU...