En tu ausencia...

Hoy miro el apocento donde estoy encerrado
analizo cada rincon y la nostalgia de tu ausencia
opacada por el saber que regresarasme hace
sentirme acorralado. Me doy cuenta que
a tu lado hay mas espacio...

Reviso una a una mis tristezas y alegrias,
sonrisas que enmascaran la falta que me haces
y dedusco que son mas honesta
cuando eres la causa que las produce...

Pero tu escencia espera con ansias
tu regreso a mi recuerdo
y el cielo al ser observado por mi
me retorna a la memoria que
somos como sol y luna,
que brillamos a causa de ese
amor permanente como brillan
ellos al saber que cada noche y dia
alguien se detendra a observarles.

My Soul. Before and After

How can i describe what was inside of me?
the way that i've lost the faith in what I believed
but I knew somewhere my hope and happiness was wating for
the change i should make to said that i've live, and a real life
not a fake, like a lot of person do. I honestly guess that
I've found the of my road being alive yet, but I was wrong
when everything ends to me, was when it really start...
a change of life, a change of thoughts, all because of you
all because I decided to take a risk.. and you told me what
try it, you're the reason of all my actually happiness and
my meaning of life, a shining light into this darkest soul...

And now that you are here, to listen to me, conforting my empty side of heart
changing all that pain what some day flood my shatered heart, and turning it into
new wishes...

Arigato..

Let me sleep into shadows, resting in peace into the most deep darkness.

He adaptado mi cuerpo y mente a un modo de vida que , no es el mejor pero
me senti bien en este, oscuro, apartado, diferente... y alli me consumia, sin permitir
a nadie saber que ocurria alli dentro y sin saber k ocurria afuera, no es que me interesara pero despeja tu mente de vez en cuando.
Oh! soledad, vuelvo a recordarte, siempre tan insistente en hacerme sentir miserable
pero nunca lograndolo por completo.

Escucho de todos lados palabras como: ''eres increible no cambies'', si no cambio
terminare ahogado en la monotonia de mi vida, que es lo unico que late mas fuerte que mi corazon la desesperacion de saber que no quiero salir de un mundo donde me he
encerrado y del cual estoy cansado esto acabara en suicidio...

Quiero ir mas lejos, mas aya de los sueños, para ver si encuentro en que poner empeños.
Duermo agonizando, despierto en una pesadilla que amarra mi desesperacion y crece
con la luna para luego desaparecer al ver el sol, el deseo de claridad indeseado quiere imponerse,
deseando que cada esperanza quebrada pase por las manos de aquel que nos juzga
y luego retorne en nada...Haciendome mas miserable y dejando en mi vacia y perdida consciencia la necesidad de ir a dormir entre sombras, y descansar en paz en la mas profunda oscuridad.

Todo a causa del putrefacto resultado de vivir una monotonia que encarcelando mi alma
perdurara lo suficiente para terminar esta etapa y adelantarme a la muerte.Dejando al desangrar, que goteen cada sueño incumplido y lamentandolo por aque que intento amar a esta causa una vez perdida y agradecido de auella persona que mostro el infinito significado de esta corta palabra:AMOR.

Entre los escombros de esta aldea quebrantada, de esta historia inconclusa hallaras igual
que en la caja de pandora una chispa de esperanza que gira en torno a una persona...
Chispa que deseo renazca con tal fuerza que congrege todo sentimiento de alegria que ssufrio alguna vez de la decadencia de la felicidad en mi, y llene ese vacio causado por las ganas de estar solo...

Pretend to understand you...and all that wait for me crossing that river

Every day I hve to listen all the spikes that blow out from your mouth
hurting myself and I keep pretending that all's my fault,
even knowing that isn't truth I lock me up inside of me.

I look behind me, and, what can you see?, pain and suffering sheltered in my heart.
The same pain that grow up the days that i was trough you and your Devil's whore
wife.


You first-born son, poor dude, he cannot see, the madness that grow into me everytime he
try to fix the things and all gets worst. He just have himself, nothing else, and push me
away from everywhere, leaving me forsaken by my ''family''.

But among all that crap there's a place in my head for me, a place lived by
me and a little girl with the courage to face me, to face who I really am...
...A princess that fix everything just whit a smile. Trough her eyes
I can feel the happyness, and feel sure, Im not ashame to show myself to her!.

Can you see now? all the pain has turn dry. Im not death inside anymore...
... all the feeling that life kill into me, She relive all of them.
I can't see the past cause without see it, it hurt, cause was real...
... but all slowly change...and is becuase of you ulfany.

I have not a family, but i have found a piece of heaven... Im leaving the darkness
feeling your love... Fixing myself, and your hands full of love curing my wounds.


Dark Angel.Gorhic Soul.

Changes.

The weather is different, the darkness star to disappear,
the sky turn clear again and leave me all sense of fear...
Im wet, i start to feel nervous when the same God´s creature appear in front of me.
Im leaving the past, forgotten my cruelty reality and changing
at every moment. Now, i know and recognize all of my faults and
my faithless but I got a second chance... with you everything isn´t
the way it was, ur ligthing clear my mind.

I was a soldier of the dark side of the moon, but now.
Me, the one that was forbidden, and forsaken by the feelings
wants to stay with you ,oh greatest princess that saves me
from a eternal and drowned solitude...
I get nervous cause sometimes i think is too much for me..
but it´s true is my turn to be happy and feel the real meaning of love...
Cause this time, is the same for us we love each other.

Honey thanks... :)

wating your end...

Why cant you see that im sick of you
I hate you, the way you make me feel
guilty of all the bullshits you've done
in your whole life...

You protect me?, dont make laught,
protect yourself from me, isn't my fault
that your life was a tragedy, so don't turn
mine into the same that was yours.

Everyone betraid you, and at the past
you prefer them over us , your own blood!!!
your fucking sons, but it's ok....

Now get ready MF, I'll show you all the hate
and pain you made me felt.You will see how
sick and mad i could be....

Ur Betraid son
Dark Angel

Everithing seems to be againts me, i dont know where else to go.
I locked up, and then I fall in emptyness, depress again. i dont know whats wrong
but there´s something that cling to me and keep me unable to move.
It scare me, cause Im supposed to feel great but it seems to be different.
The pain and fear raise up again inside of me. Death inside full of nothingness
Kissed by the Queen of Damnation that drown me in my blood and left my
body without sigh and trow in the floor.
The last time I tried to be happy and found myself in someone,
you appear in front of my eyes, like everything I always needed,
and is true since u are here with me, all that killed my thougths
and squeeze my hope turning it to nothing, disappear.

I asked for help and you answer me, without take care about my past,
you came to write a fairy tale in my heart. Im still in darkness
but now ligthing by your shining presence. Cold was my soul all this time
but the warm feel of your hugs has change that. Arigato



Ur Dark Angel